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Axdrenalin
[H]ard|DCer of the Month - Nov. 2009
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I've not posted a lot over the past year or so in the DC foums, and for that I apologize. There have been a lot of things that have happened in my life, especially over the past 2-3 years, that have taken a lot of my efforts and focus away from the F@H project, and ironically enough the things that have taken my attention away are the very things we're contributing to in hopes of finding a cure for.
I lost a very near and dear Aunt to cancer 5 months ago. She had been struggling with it for 2 and a half years before she fell victim to the beast, and the last words that she said to me were "I Love You..." It broke my heart when she passed on...
Fast forward to the past few weeks, and my father has just recovered from a surgery that leaves a cut from the back center of his head and extends to the base of his neck. They had to remove a couple places on the back of his head, as well as several of the lymph nodes in that region. The also removed a lemon sized mass from the base of his neck that was growing there, attaching itself to the surrounding muscles and nerves. The results from the mass biopsy (and the places on the back of his head)? Melanoma...yeah, the fastest acting cancer out there. In addition to that, he's been undergoing chemo treatments for the past 5-6 months for Chronic Lymphocyatic Leukemia (CLL). Seems like things start on a downhill slide and never get better.....
Anyways, I hope that you can all forgive me for not being as active as I once was with the project. I've not stopped contributing and feel that one day it *will* make a difference. Maybe not for any one of us or our close relatives, but maybe for our sons and daughters, or possibly our grandchildren. Please don't lose focus of the ultimate goal with distributed computing - especially the F@H project. It has always been a project that I've felt strongly about, but now it means so much more due to the personal tragedy and obstacles that my family has been against.
The points are great, and I never imagined the day when we were putting up 24+ million PPD as a team. You are all to be congratulated for your efforts, energy and time, but at the days end it's all about the research and WU data that can be processed. *Always* remember what this is really about...
Thanks also for letting me rant a bit and get this off my chest. It just seems like there is so much pent up emotion inside that sometimes I just don't know what to do with it all...
Fold [H]ard,
Robert / Ax
I lost a very near and dear Aunt to cancer 5 months ago. She had been struggling with it for 2 and a half years before she fell victim to the beast, and the last words that she said to me were "I Love You..." It broke my heart when she passed on...
Fast forward to the past few weeks, and my father has just recovered from a surgery that leaves a cut from the back center of his head and extends to the base of his neck. They had to remove a couple places on the back of his head, as well as several of the lymph nodes in that region. The also removed a lemon sized mass from the base of his neck that was growing there, attaching itself to the surrounding muscles and nerves. The results from the mass biopsy (and the places on the back of his head)? Melanoma...yeah, the fastest acting cancer out there. In addition to that, he's been undergoing chemo treatments for the past 5-6 months for Chronic Lymphocyatic Leukemia (CLL). Seems like things start on a downhill slide and never get better.....
Anyways, I hope that you can all forgive me for not being as active as I once was with the project. I've not stopped contributing and feel that one day it *will* make a difference. Maybe not for any one of us or our close relatives, but maybe for our sons and daughters, or possibly our grandchildren. Please don't lose focus of the ultimate goal with distributed computing - especially the F@H project. It has always been a project that I've felt strongly about, but now it means so much more due to the personal tragedy and obstacles that my family has been against.
The points are great, and I never imagined the day when we were putting up 24+ million PPD as a team. You are all to be congratulated for your efforts, energy and time, but at the days end it's all about the research and WU data that can be processed. *Always* remember what this is really about...
Thanks also for letting me rant a bit and get this off my chest. It just seems like there is so much pent up emotion inside that sometimes I just don't know what to do with it all...
Fold [H]ard,
Robert / Ax
